Sian. Everything doesn't go as per planned. People come and go, kinda sad also.. Maybe I'm destined to wait for a very long Long time indeed. Sometimes really envy those who got together fast, got married fast and have kids fast. Happy family is really a blessing but not everyone gets it.. Maybe I'll continue praying and hope for the best.
Sometimes in the end you are either too blessed that you don't realise that you are complaining for what you don't have which is a want, compared to others who have trouble meeting their basic needs. I wonder is that me after all. To think of it, I have food, shelter, work, bla bla, shouldn't I be contented with what I have? Sigh.....
Oh well, hope things get better for me in 2016.
Cheers... T_______T
Sunday, December 27, 2015
Saturday, June 21, 2014
First Step towards Resolving my Issues
Deep inside I still felt a strong love for music, creating beautiful and alluring music that people can enjoy. I enjoy being a performer during my life before university life. I also enjoy being a conductor and the song arranger where I can choose how to retell the story to the audience in my own unique ways. But that was way way before university times. I fully regret how my music education stopped when I chose NUS to be my next stop.
I sincerely hope that a cellist can rekindle my love for music again and whom are able to guide me to the next step of being a fully accomplished musician. I already decided to put down my brass and woodwind knowledge and enter into the world of string and piano as to me, it seems to be more mature and simply opens up to more possibilities beneath the constraint of breathing. Even with unique way of breathing, there are some things where it simply cannot be done. Imagine a euphonium playing a phrase full of semiquavers. Even with connectors which enables you to transit over the next valve without break, it really cannot fully express this phrase better than cello. I have personally experienced it and have decisively made up my mind to shift over to cello someday.
I truly hope that someone will appear in my life someday and guide me in my dreams of being a storyteller
I sincerely hope that a cellist can rekindle my love for music again and whom are able to guide me to the next step of being a fully accomplished musician. I already decided to put down my brass and woodwind knowledge and enter into the world of string and piano as to me, it seems to be more mature and simply opens up to more possibilities beneath the constraint of breathing. Even with unique way of breathing, there are some things where it simply cannot be done. Imagine a euphonium playing a phrase full of semiquavers. Even with connectors which enables you to transit over the next valve without break, it really cannot fully express this phrase better than cello. I have personally experienced it and have decisively made up my mind to shift over to cello someday.
I truly hope that someone will appear in my life someday and guide me in my dreams of being a storyteller
Friday, June 20, 2014
Quest of Life?
This morning as I sat down while pressing the keys on my keyboard aimlessly, a thought struck me. It is not entirely a new idea nor a revolutionary one. It's a question what one will always ask oneself but was often never taken seriously..
What have I done in my life..
If viewed with negative perspective..
1) I'm a Christian but I still feel far away from Him
2) I successfully got dumped by my ex-girlfriend
3) I'm suffering from chronic disease which no one cares about
4) My financial standing is nowhere here nor there
5) My current care group/church sort of sidelined me. So I also become an ex..
6) My music dream was stunted by my ex-girlfriend and ended
7) I am not enjoying my current career at all
8) I am pretty much alone now and an introvert due to all those above
If viewed with positive perspective..
1) I'm still alive... great..
2) The first point above is corrupted with the negative perspective already. No point continuing..
What should I do??
What am I supposed to do in my life.. I am really lost already!
What have I done in my life..
If viewed with negative perspective..
1) I'm a Christian but I still feel far away from Him
2) I successfully got dumped by my ex-girlfriend
3) I'm suffering from chronic disease which no one cares about
4) My financial standing is nowhere here nor there
5) My current care group/church sort of sidelined me. So I also become an ex..
6) My music dream was stunted by my ex-girlfriend and ended
7) I am not enjoying my current career at all
8) I am pretty much alone now and an introvert due to all those above
If viewed with positive perspective..
1) I'm still alive... great..
2) The first point above is corrupted with the negative perspective already. No point continuing..
What should I do??
What am I supposed to do in my life.. I am really lost already!
Saturday, November 30, 2013
RE:Introduction to Christ
Dear all,
Ever stopped doing everything and rethink what life is about? Perhaps something devastating happened that throws your life into a timeless phase where everything seems to be meaningless..
I myself do admit that I'm currently going through such an event which really made me rethink what life is about. When something really important is taken away from you, it's a pivotal moment where you have to make a decision on your direction of life.
Hmm.. Remember Christ?...
Steps of diagnosis:
Take a magnifying glass and examine where is Christ in your heart
Is Christ
a) Sitting comfortably on the sofa in the living room in your house (In your life)
b) Hiding in the store room in your house (A shameful presence)
c) An unwanted visitor in your home at the moment due to other "commitments" (My life goes first!)
d) Still knocking on the door of your house (Hello, who are you?)
The important question here is where do we place Christ in our life. Are we putting ourself first and Christ second? I do understand that all of us are brought up with different priorities in life set by how society shapes us. Some of the common priorities in live may be in the form of wealth, status, power, relationship, human love or living life to the fullest.
When these priorities are taken away from our life, as Christians, why then do we feel devastated? Simple.. We have put those priorities above God, which translates to idols in our life. Thus, this is a great and timely reminder from God that hey, remember me, your God whom my son you have accepted as your personal Lord and Savior?
“You shall not make for yourself a carved image, or any likeness of anything that is in heaven above, or that is in the earth beneath, or that is in the water under the earth. 5 You shall not bow down to them or serve them, for I the Lord your God am a jealous God, visiting the iniquity of the fathers on the children to the third and the fourth generation of those who hate me, 6 but showing steadfast love to thousands[b] of those who love me and keep my commandments. (Exodus 20:4)
I am a Christian myself and I do admit that I have placed wealth, status and relationship first above God before. Yes, we Christians do experience these before. It is also understandable that placing God first in our life above all things, yes, even ourself, is an extremely difficult decision to take. It's like hey, can I trust you with everything I have? Not easy at all.. The answer is this; We are saved through God's grace which is totally undeserved by us sinners in the first place who deserved to go to hell eternally. Jesus laid down his life on the cross to save us from our sins which we ourselves can't save ourselves from. Through him alone, we are reunited with God.
Jesus said to him, “I am the way, and the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me. (John 14:6)
Therefore, isn't it obvious that we should put our main focus on God alone? Anything less of that equates as an insult to our God, our Saviour.
To all ye brothers and sisters in Christ out there, let us all be reminded that God is always there in our life and do put Him first and foremost in your life. Do let Him control the steering wheel of your car. Take a step of faith and trust him, for He is our Saviour!
Love,
Anonymous
Ever stopped doing everything and rethink what life is about? Perhaps something devastating happened that throws your life into a timeless phase where everything seems to be meaningless..
I myself do admit that I'm currently going through such an event which really made me rethink what life is about. When something really important is taken away from you, it's a pivotal moment where you have to make a decision on your direction of life.
Hmm.. Remember Christ?...
Steps of diagnosis:
Take a magnifying glass and examine where is Christ in your heart
Is Christ
a) Sitting comfortably on the sofa in the living room in your house (In your life)
b) Hiding in the store room in your house (A shameful presence)
c) An unwanted visitor in your home at the moment due to other "commitments" (My life goes first!)
d) Still knocking on the door of your house (Hello, who are you?)
The important question here is where do we place Christ in our life. Are we putting ourself first and Christ second? I do understand that all of us are brought up with different priorities in life set by how society shapes us. Some of the common priorities in live may be in the form of wealth, status, power, relationship, human love or living life to the fullest.
When these priorities are taken away from our life, as Christians, why then do we feel devastated? Simple.. We have put those priorities above God, which translates to idols in our life. Thus, this is a great and timely reminder from God that hey, remember me, your God whom my son you have accepted as your personal Lord and Savior?
“You shall not make for yourself a carved image, or any likeness of anything that is in heaven above, or that is in the earth beneath, or that is in the water under the earth. 5 You shall not bow down to them or serve them, for I the Lord your God am a jealous God, visiting the iniquity of the fathers on the children to the third and the fourth generation of those who hate me, 6 but showing steadfast love to thousands[b] of those who love me and keep my commandments. (Exodus 20:4)
I am a Christian myself and I do admit that I have placed wealth, status and relationship first above God before. Yes, we Christians do experience these before. It is also understandable that placing God first in our life above all things, yes, even ourself, is an extremely difficult decision to take. It's like hey, can I trust you with everything I have? Not easy at all.. The answer is this; We are saved through God's grace which is totally undeserved by us sinners in the first place who deserved to go to hell eternally. Jesus laid down his life on the cross to save us from our sins which we ourselves can't save ourselves from. Through him alone, we are reunited with God.
Jesus said to him, “I am the way, and the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me. (John 14:6)
Therefore, isn't it obvious that we should put our main focus on God alone? Anything less of that equates as an insult to our God, our Saviour.
To all ye brothers and sisters in Christ out there, let us all be reminded that God is always there in our life and do put Him first and foremost in your life. Do let Him control the steering wheel of your car. Take a step of faith and trust him, for He is our Saviour!
Love,
Anonymous
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